Anonymous asked: Lately I have been feeling so lonely. Nobody cares about me. My family has ignored my existence my entire life, and when I give up on them, they harass me constantly. My dad even told me I was useless and that I ruined his life. It replays in my mind every second. And on top of everything, I have lost all of my best friends, and I ruined the most amazing relationship with the most amazing guy. I want them back. Especially him. I am going crazy. Sorry, I just need someone to listen to me.

If you want them back you have to fight for them but the feeling has to be mutual.  They have to want to be in your life too.  It’s not going to be easy making up with those most important to you but just start with a little hello or a little apology.  It may not mean much or it may mean everything so who knows?  If they all really care about you, they won’t mean the mean things they say.  Alot of mean things are said from bottled feelings from the past so don’t let it affect you too much.  I’m sure they all care about you more than you think.  It’ll seem glum now but just give it some time.  Try not to dwell on the negative and focus on the positive and if there are none, which I doubt, plan for a better future.  What can you do to fix it?  What can you do to make it better?  Just little things here and there and your relationships will slowly be mended.

Anonymous asked: Okay. So I'd like to start off by saying I would never harm myself intentionally. Ever. But the past few weeks my friends have been telling me to "kill myself". They do it with a smile, and I respond with silly facial expressions and we all laugh. But it does leave me feeling a little weird(?). I don't know the exact word to describe it. But how do I tell them to stop without sounding like it bothers me? It's not making me consider hurting myself, once again, but it is annoying me.

I think you should just be honest and tell them it but I see where you’re coming from.  You don’t want them to think of you as someone who’s suicidal, right?  Just tell them that that joke isn’t funny and they can say anything but that.  It really isn’t something to be joked about because if someone over hears it, it may offend them but we’re young, we’re still learning.

Anonymous asked: What made you start this blog?

I’ve noticed other people had advice blogs so I was like, yeah cool, I’ll make one and help people too.  Then after I got a few people asking for advice I really liked it.  It’s fun helping people IMO.  Sometimes I get lazy to login because I have this and that to do and then this slips my mind.  But I realized this blog means something to some people and probably not alot but one is better than none.  

Anonymous asked: I don't think you will reply to this but i just wanted to thank you so much for running this blog and being such a caring person. It is so nice to know somebody is here to talk to. I can't thank you enough, you have helped so many people out with their problems. Do you believe in karma? I certainly believe and hope all your kind actions and words will come back to you.

I really cannot express how much I appreciate every single one of the compliments I receive.  I really do hope I make a difference towards the people that have asked for advice.  I will always keep this blog up and running for anyone that needs someone to talk to I just wish I could help everyone but there’s only so much one can do but it’s like a chain reaction, you know?  I believe everyone has the ability to do the kindest of things and the most sinister things, given the right circumstances.  But I hope I encouraged alot of people to be kinder to those around them.  Thank you :)

Anonymous asked: Is it wrong that in the three times I've attempted, I never once thought to write a letter? My last time was two days ago. I was going to do it, head in noose but something snapped. Everyone was home and I didn't want to be any more "selfish" so I didn't. I've came to the realization that I do want to die but I'm worried that they'll forget me. And then it won't ever go through their skulls that I NEEDED them to pay attention. Even after I'm dead, they won't understand how they ruined me.

People care but they take you for granted because the thought of losing you doesn’t seem realistic.  Don’t make it realistic.  Stay strong because you can make it.  You will make it.  It’s not a selfish thought but I don’t encourage it.  You just want someone to care, someone to make life seem worth it.  Something that, when you wake up, you have something to look forward to.  Life has a way of making everyone feel like shit but just give it time.  Yeah, cliche.  But time does make things better, it provides new opportunities for you and changes.  Don’t give up now.  You’re here for a reason.  Those first few times of surviving?  It wasn’t an accident.  You don’t want to die, you just need people to show you they care.  I care.  As meaningless as that is considering I’m a stranger on the internet, it’s true.  I made this blog to be the person people can talk to when they feel like they have no one.  Please keep in mind that people do care, they really do .. even if they have an odd way of showing it.  You deserve to be happy and that happiness will come soon.  Stay strong until then.

Anonymous asked: what is your name?

My name’s Calina.

Anonymous asked: i feel like none of my friends care about me or some of them secretly dont like me. we never talk outside of school and some of them never reply to my text messages. i feel depressed i guess...i feel like no one loves me but i dont give a shit at the same time...but i hate feeling lonely. and when i come home a wave of depression just hits me and i drown myself in music. what do you think?

I know how you feel cause I was recently like that. Slowly I started to get myself out of that funk and become happier. How? I slowly lost my ‘friends’ one by one. And along the way I found a friend that was there for me but I started to become depressed again and eventually we stopped being friends. Sometimes it’s the people you hang around, the environment you’re in or sometimes there isn’t any reason at all. It’s okay to not be okay but don’t let that rule your life. Pull yourself together day by day. You have to choose to be happy. You have to make that effort to get yourself there.

Anonymous asked: i'm broken. i'm so close to giving up. nobody cares. i can't tell anyone how i feel even my own family hurt me. i want to take a break. it's so hard. i feel like i shouldn't even be here anymore like everything would be better if i wasn't. i don't know what to do.

I’m sorry that you feel this way and I can tell you that it does get better. Its hard to stay strong when you keep going through things like this. Things are not as bad as they always seem just try to stay positive. Count your blessings not your problems. I think it’ll be easier for you if you had a hobby to put your feelings toward. Something to take your mind off things. You can write short stories, letters then burn them or stuff like that to express yourself. Anyway that will get out your emotions is much healthier than holding it in. Everything will be okay in the end and if it isn’t okay then it’s not the end. Just hold on.

Anonymous asked: so i had feelings for my ex a while ago but then i got over them but my friend kind of slipped out that i still liked him and now he thinks i do so everytime we walk past each other, it's awkward. he looks at me but then looks away. i want to tell him i don't but i'm scared.

Don’t be scared! It’s only awkward and scary if you allow it to be. Just play it cool, go up to him when he’s alone and tell him but don’t be mean about it either.

Anonymous asked: so I have never been in a proper relationship but there is this guy and we chatted when we first met and we go to the same club and when we met we chatted for like 2 hours straight no problem. But then now when I see him we don't talk but we've texted each other nearly everyday since December. But he is a bit older than me and leaving in September and I don't know what I should do because we've said we like each other but I need advice! you're blog is inspirational btw hun xxx

Are you willing to do a long distance relationship? They’re difficult. Are you both willing to make that commitment? Do you see yourself being with him for a long time or is it just for now? If you start a relationship make sure you two are serious and committed. I hate seeing people get hurt in relationships although pain is inevitable. You can always have a chat with him to see if he wants to take it to the next level too just to be on the safe side. But think it over a bit before you take action!